von Peter Goldman, GB

Seelenschule 2002
This is a transcription of parts of the Seminar «Seelenschule», October 2002 given by Elisabeth Bond and Peter Goldman

You find that you are meeting people that you haven’t seen on the earth that often but that you have seen them very frequently on another level. We meet as if we have been meeting very frequently, but we haven’t, but we have. ............. And it’s full of vitality and life becomes very inconvenient when it doesn’t flow on this level but it flows on the other levels.

Nothing in our life needs to change externally. We become more in touch simultane-ously with all the different facets of our own complete self. Which means really that we have a capacity of finding the direction or the process under any circumstance, under every circumstance. This is interesting, it doesn’t matter that life is not filled with good luck or bad luck. It’s not that important what Saturn is doing or Jupiter is doing. Of course, it’s important but it’s how responsive we are and this is always interesting because we never know quite what we are going to be bringing out of ourself and we need the stimulus so we need the surprise. This is a shift from the familiarity of who we are to ourself and maybe also to others as well. But even so it is the same me that was me when I was very, very small but it is even closer per-haps to that sense of wonder, of love of discovery, of interest in managing and maybe also from our very early years we can have strong emotions but they don’t dominate us for more than their own moment. It’s a flavour, it’s an aroma, it’s an atmosphere and it moves. It does not become crystallised. What I feel is that as this is happening, it is also the sense of the simultaneous, many facetted, co-operative response, many different aspects. So the gradual integration is not just everything coming together like a lump, it’s just the opposite. We turn into a nebulae, we turn into a new system that is beginning to awaken and create it’s own new planets. We can draw in ideas from anywhere and use them somewhere. And this turns karma on its head, it frees us from this almost straight line of what we do or we suffer or get rewarded. I have a feeling we can change and exchange our karmic process. So maybe tomorrow you’ll have my stomach ache and I’ll have your headache. And if you really love me you can go to my dentist as well. And I’ll meet your best friend at the art gallery. Is this chaos? Is this nonsense? What happens when we don’t possess this transient process of the interweaving of moments? If the doctors suffer from the illness before they treat the patient, will they treat the patient differently once they get better? It’s an interesting thought about going to medical school, isn’t it. Have you been sick enough to be qualified to be well enough. That is the traditional idea of karma isn’t it. Have you suffered enough in order to understand what is likely to be happening. No, I haven’t. Can you help me to suffer a little bit more? Oh, what a nice idea, how shall we suffer on this occasion? I’m looking for the cure of how to grow new hair myself. I’ve tried positive thought and affirmation, mostly because that is the cheapest remedy and you can do it while you are doing other things because you can be simultaneously on two levels. I get worried because if this idea catches on taxi drivers will also be meditating while they’re driving. I had a conversation with my taxi driver about how he had this laser treatment for his eyes. It wasn’t quite successful and I became a bit worried. You don’t have to use glasses anymore if you have this laser treatment. But the trouble was at night, lights used to shimmer instead of being stable. It was night when he was telling me the story. So I quickly asked him about his family and he began to drive more quietly. I told him about my grandchildren so that he would think of me as well. Because you know we get mixed up in everybody’s karma no matter how good we are. I always look to see who I’m in an elevator with nowadays. I used to look who I was in an aeroplane with but I gave that up. You know, everybody starts to look the same. When you can’t work positively with growing your own hair everybody starts to look the same, except children of course.

What happens to children when they grow up? I get so excited when I see them and then I look at their parents and then I look at myself and then I wonder what happened. These wonderful, wonderful exciting people. I came across a word in a book and it said karma. That is what happens to children when they grow up. There is the sense of alignment, the sense of heaven and earth much more comfortably flowing up and down. In the bible Jacob was wrestling with the angel. Why should we be wrestling with angels? Angels are going up and down ladders. I think that is a very exhausting kind of way, isn’t it? It’s a long way up to heaven to climb. I’ve been brought up on that story, but my own reality says that heaven is right here. We are right in the moment as we find the sense of enlightenment. Angelic presences inspire and uplift and translate darkness into light. I have a feeling we are here to free the whole world from all of these old legends. Not to get rid of them, it is not against these legends but it is to give them wings, wings into the cosmos. In a way this is like saying we allow the brain to shift its axis. Not the earth to shift its axis but the brain to shift its axis. That the soul itself can embrace us. Do you think the body fits into the soul or the soul fits into the body? What do you think? If you have discomfort with small spaces what do you think? Do you think, there are big souls, middle-sized souls and small souls? And that there are very slim souls and souls that are not so slim? What happens if the soul is vast and we are just a tiny point within the soul? Who we are is not measured in space, it is just a beingness but it’s a nice beingness, it is substantial. And as a body I am within my soul. It is not so much that my soul has to be shrunk to fit in me. One of the most inspiring souls I have come across is Hildegard von Bingen. But her body wasn’t such a nice place if you read her stories. Somehow her soul managed to hold on to her body even though she did her best to free it. In those days they used to try to die in order to be reborn while they were still alive though for Hildegard incredible things happened. But you can’t run a country like that, you know. I wish some of our politicians were a little bit more healthy but it would worry me if they were too healthy. Maybe they should all become vegetarians. Then they needn’t break for mealtimes, they could get a lot more work done. Can you imagine, all the bureaucrats in Europe no longer need to eat food. We could even reduce their pension because they wouldn’t need it to buy so much food. They could just be souls for the body.

Now if we are a body within a really enormous concept of being, would we imagine that this enormous concept of being is going to be a minimalist or to live a life full of everything. I don’t get the minimalist idea very much myself. I get the sense of such abundance, such generosity, such opportunity, such fullness of everything. If one part of ourself is unhappy the other 98 percent of ourself is going to say, oh, you’re having a bad day. And what will we do when 98 percent of us is feeling fine and we know it? Which means when our perspective is so large that we can proportion in our pleasure and in our pain. Is that possible? It is not a lack of feeling, but it is not of a world to be drowned in feeling either. And it is not some perfect everything where we always look as if we were devout. It is like nature, like the weather, it happens.and is yet within the care and the balance and containment of law which never ever fails. Do you feel that sense of the soul, the soul I am is completely and totally reliable? So reliable that this inner teacher, this inner master is not a being but it is a state of experience. We don’t try to fit our god into a little garment with a beard. It is a universal presence. Who is going to remind me of this when I forget? In our group tonight it is so strong, the sense of a presence of the light of the soul of our greater being. It is so easy isn’t it. But I didn’t remember it every day since last time. Some days I forgot. Once or twice I became angry that I could not remember about my soul. And the days I felt a sense of hopelessness and depression. And a part of me wanted to go into that and stay there. But I felt there were about 80 pairs of eyes watching me. And where do you think you are going, into depression? I said, Leave me alone, I want to be alone. They said, You can only be alone with all of us, no other way. If we have enough people somebody is always having a party, even if it is just for their dog. People sometimes have a birthday party for their dog. Every soul is invited. We all go for a walk. And then when somebody the next day says, How are you? You say, I tried to get depressed but I failed again. But I am taking the tablets and my doctor is happy. It is how it happens now, you know.

We are surrounded by this enormous sense of ourself, it’s not measurable in space. I live as a human being within the fullness, the almost undefinable fullness of my be-ing. But there is a certain kind of extent, there is a certain horizon in which our in-carnation is contained. So flowing in there is the full spectrum of sunlight, of star-light, there is cosmic light and there is higher dimensional light. Each of us is the very centre of our own universe. Can you imagine that each of us, even if the room contained ten times a many people, each of us is the absolute centre of our own universe. The concept of the inner creator, of the soul which is like the vehicle of this inner creator, only lives in the centre. Now, it’s a state of mind at this level, it’s a state of being, it’s a state of imaginative presence at this level. So I am in the cen-tre of this universe and how do I know who I am? In other words how do I absorb in taking what I need? Because everything on earth is up or down or sideways and yet it is only an apparency, it is an outward impression. The actual way our body functions is from the centre like a sphere.

Our horizon of our own centre is of a very subtle nature. It is like a rose white colour, it’s like an apple blossom colour. It is pure white just with a little touch of rosa. It is something that isn’t anything and yet it is more real than we are. It is like an aroma, it is like a presence and it has an impression of pure clear white with just a touch of rosa. And this is like the way in which we take in what we need from all of these different frequencies of light, but we are free of everything that we don’t need. We are nourished by the universe and we select what we need and we leave what we don’t. And within us is the reference as in an individual sense of the sun and the star and the cosmos and all the dimensions. This is our light that we call the light that is opening in our lives now. I would rather give my description of this after you already had your experience. This is our third meeting so I would like to talk about it now. This idea of this very subtle life that is more a feeling, more an aroma than anything. This is our connection to the universe, this is our plug in a way, our way of interfacing easily. I feel it is starting to work on us, it is starting to free. It starts to free in a very gentle way, there is no cathartic response. It gradually begins to shed all kinds of loads. Now, one of the first loads it is releasing from us is the sense of guilt and shame of belief systems. It never takes the position of opposition. The sense of freeing the loads that we carry embraces friend and enemy. Because you know, if it weren’t for the enemy we would be unemployed probably. This is how it seems doesn’t it?

What is this colour of red blue velvet to you? Not velvet that is so heavy, just that feeling of it when you touch the velvet and it is this very subtle red and blue. It is a nice feeling, it’s a very deep colour and yet it’s full of light that we cannot directly experience. What does this mean? When you have two subtle colours, sort of a red blue mixture it’s a kind of violet, you can’t quite tell. It’s something which you don’t even see, it passes so quickly. It’s a colour that we sometimes see in the night sky. It touches the most sensitive area of our instinctive nature and it says, peace, peace, quiet. It’s like the first blanket that as a child we touch, that we know so well. These are the frequencies that come in and start to go into all the most difficult deep, dark, obscure areas. And the difference is not so much what we feel in ourselves but how we respond to others at first. It doesn’t mean we become more tolerant of what is not acceptable, but we become much less judgmental, much less polarised. As this begins to do its work we begin to experience light as if we are at that moment when the storm clears and the sky begins to open again. Now this is always a time when we feel, Ah, the earth is somehow cleansed so that we can begin to breathe more freely. As if we’ve survived some kind of powerful nature force and I’m still here and everything is still ok. The sky is clearing, the colours are coming back into the world and it’s a moment of promise. It is just a moment but it is filled with promise. Now this is where the fears are healed, they don’t have to be identified, just healed. They are just, as it were, recycled, as the earth recycles all the leaves of autumn. As this happens all of our hidden resources become remembered. They are not remembered with guilt or with regret or with shame or with fear. This is resolved, it is recycled. It no longer has the energy that it had. It is as if we were walking through one of those paintings of the impressionists. It’s a field of poppies and buttercups and also those tiny daisies. All of these things which if you cut them down they just laugh at you and they grow up the next day. And if you don’t cut them down they take over the whole world. But when you walk in this field it’s like walking in a mirror where the sky is reflected in nature. And they grow, there is never an end to growth and this is our hidden resource. There is never an end to our hidden resources. And the higher we go the deeper we go. Have you ever thought about that? Have you ever walked amongst the redwoods in California? They have been growing longer than our religions have been confusing us. They have been growing longer than all the wars in the name of God. They cannot go higher if their roots don’t go deeper. We get in touch more with the fullness of our soul, when our soul as it were whispers and our whole world is filled with its whisper. Our whole world is filled with the whisper of our soul. It is like with the top of this great redwood, we’re deep under the ground at the same time. And in the midst of life which is coming and going with all these little people and their different disagreements, I stand and I grow. And all the time a light of the cosmos, the stars and the sun of the higher dimensions is flowing in and we are filtering it, we are taking what we need. I’m alive and my body is asleep and I’m alive and my body is awake and I’m alive. Isn’t that interesting? I couldn’t escape it since last time. I tried to. Now I can meditate and get rid of the world. It doesn’t work that way so much now. I meditate and I’m into the world. Something has changed. There is something in this network that works. It’s network works. Do you think if I made a little bumper sticker I could sell it? I’m always looking for products you know. If I only made one franc on every bumper sticker I sold. And everybody in the European Union and not in the European Union would buy one, or Ford, General Motors would not sell a motor car that did not have this sticker on it. You know they are going to have this navigation system in every car quite soon. So we can just have a little sticker on the back as well. How do we measure the success of this? Because I’ve been to workshops where they talk about abundance and prosperity. Everybody brought their bank statements with them, they meditated on money. It was an interesting evening.

Do you get the feeling that we are already in abundance, and the idea that we can adjust to any circumstances any moment in any condition, anything. It doesn’t make life easier but it does make life much more interesting. With tons of resources, tons of energy. Even when it’s a bad day 98 percent of us is not having that bad day only two percent is. Do you think that is true? It doesn’t feel true on a bad day but it is true. If all your relatives joined your two percent it’s true. But this whole work allows us to live in our families differently. Do you find that now? The family that already is in heaven appreciates this more than the families that are not yet in heaven. But I have seen such good indicators and I hope you’ll give me some feedback that will encourage me as well. I really want to thank you though because I really do want to acknowledge the tremendous sense of group support that I have experienced. Thank you very much.

Meditation
..... I am in touch with all the light of all the spheres of everywhere and I am always and I always am. Within me upon the earth time and space is my physical friend, my brother sister friend. My brother sister friend lives within the light and dark of crea-tion within the world of matter. And this friend is important, essential for the growth of my own self reflection. And I pour into the light within this moment of time and space the fullness of my being but only just enough. I am a human being. I live within the world of space and time and matter. The cosmos is around me and it is a great mystery. I can only see it when the sun goes down. When the sun rises in the daylight I can see no further than my own simple horizon. And yet within me there is a dialogue between what I can see and what I can only imagine. But it feels also that I am seen, that I am an expression of a greater imagining. This is a gentle loving embrace, it awakens, it supports. And in one way I am subject to all the seasons and all the changes without knowing where I come from or where I am going. Yet more and more I feel I am part of a great and wonderful embracing where everything is a part of me and I am a part of everything. I am unique but I am part of the uniqueness of everyone. What this means is awakening within me, it is like a dawn that has never broken upon this world before. And I wonder, is it my soul that has prayed for this moment that I may arise and awaken. Is this the answer to my prayers of forever in those moments of extreme. But it all comes together as it seems in these times and in this we all come together too. So we hold these thoughts as our energy that anchors our work for our time here becomes strong and also becomes so full of love and also of the lightness.
So as we gently return, who is returning?


It would be interesting to come back to wherever we come from telling somebody else what has happened. All the good stories were suddenly going through my mind and I was looking at the expression in the eyes of the listeners they were getting wider and wider and wider. They would say, where have you been? We would say, well, we’ve been to a soul school seminar. People always repeat what you say, but they don’t actually repeat it, they change it. So they would say, A school for souls? No, a soul school. And then we’re already in big trouble. So they might say, if they didn’t want to change the subject very quickly, What did you do? Now, what shall we say? Shall we say, We are working with the fifth initiation? And if they didn’t actually know how to respond immediately, they might hesitate for a moment and we could say, It’s like arranging a holiday that we’re going to have in twelve years. And if they still find it a little difficult to know exactly how to go on from there, we could say, Well there’s an interim holiday in five years. How would they respond, do you know? So we can look deep into their eyes and say I am doing this for you because I have gone beyond myself you know. So they might say, Well, does that mean you won’t be wanting any dinner tonight? We could say, No I haven’t gone beyond eating yet. When I sat down these are all conversations I began to hear and I forgot what we were supposed to do. I always plan the way of going back into life so that nobody notices that I’ve been away because I always think everybody is going to persecute me for not believing in exactly the same things they do. The other is that they might really think I have the answers to all their questions and they’ll start to follow me around. So I just say, Well, I went to a beautiful place in the south of Germany. And maybe they wouldn’t notice anything. Then they might look at us and say, There is something different about you. I don’t know how you would respond but that would flatter my ego a little bit and then I would find it very difficult not to tell them all the wonderful things I had experienced, because really I’m longing to go back and tell the whole world all these exciting things. But my grandchildren are not interested in where I’ve been last weekend, they’re interested in where they are going next weekend.

The heading for this afternoon is called family of soul light.
Now it doesn’t matter who we are and which planet we might come from. The con-cept of the soul being this enormous space within which we live fills us with the im-pulses which manifest in our different roles. This is what we want to play with, expe-rience and see what happens....
Parent light and child light. I know that we think parents and children are only bio-logical and psychological but in fact everything exists within a soul before it be-comes manifest in form and in the linear unfoldment of time. However long or short we might live and whatever form our life might take all these different aspects are within us all the time. We work with them all the time, we may grow older and take on different outward appearances but within us we are always who we are.
This whole sense of going back and who are we going to talk to and what do we say is so much to do with expectations, traditions almost like fixed perspectives and when we enter into this fifth initiation experience we literally end up in a sense of free inner space. We are all things and we can be any one of these things. And we are, as it were, imprisoned in none and we are capable of becoming fully the potential of all. It really is the sense of the unlimiting if we are going to free ourselves from human identities we don’t become nothing, we become everything. To become everything is still everything within the uniqueness of the divine spark that is. We could say, our unique expression, the same as everything and yet with that little bit of difference. As each of us awakens for the first time to something which is perhaps by many other people well known, what happens? Because our awakening is for us unique, original and for the whole of the universe it is a moment of unique, original perception. So that if we walk in the footsteps of a very great example we don’t follow through repetition, we follow through origination. How can we be involved with so much routine, so much expectation, so much repetition and be so uniquely original?
I look around the room and I get very excited because everybody is absolutely dif-ferent. From my perception I experience your response, your thoughts, they’re all absolutely different. Everybody is having a different experience of the same experi-ence. As we become more unified, we also become more free. Does it become less the sense of unique perception or more? If we became more unified and more the same the universe would probably have stopped by now.
So in a moment of silence everybody has absolutely their own connection, their own inner communication. I didn’t speak for thirty seconds but everything went on. Maybe that was the most important moment this afternoon so far. In the silence I am listening to you. We are listening to each other maybe. Now in a moment all this front page of the newspaper is cleared away and all the cosmetic stuff doesn’t matter, unless you’re a cosmetic surgeon, in which case it’s really important. And then the inner reality, the substance of our essence just starts to radiate. It doesn’t matter where we went to school and how many things we didn’t do and how many things we got a certificate for, it doesn’t seem to matter. If we were all stranded on a desert island with only what we were wearing and we made a big speech about how important we were in the rest of the world would it make much difference? We can say, I’m a very important person, I manage a huge organisation. I make decisions and other people do it. I have a big bonus at the end of the year, I’m very important. We could say, yes, thank you, it’s very interesting on this desert island. What else can you do?

So we want to move our bodies a little bit to get into the feeling of soul light family. We want to look into this parent light and child light as an impulse of the soul within us. Let’s see where it leads us.

Now what happens when the crown and the throat become one centre? If we forget about where they are supposed to be and become just one focus, the crown and the throat. So we forget about the rest of ourselves and we just become the crown and the throat together. Everything else is hidden somewhere. What happens if we then become the crown and the throat and we enter into the colour of aquamarine? The marine colour of aqua. Now what is your idea of aquamarine? Not everybody thinks in colour. So you don’t have to imagine a colour, you can just imagine the idea, or the feeling, or the something or other of the colour.
I am the crown throat centre. I am aquamarine. Who am I? It’s like a riddle that you play at parties. We say this links us in the soul aspect of parent light. What does this do to us? Let’s just breathe it in as a crown-throat experience. And we breathe the aquamarine colour in whatever way we experience, perceive or imagine. Then we can allow the association of the experience to begin to work. It is as if we become the original ocean of the planet. Because the soul is like the great ocean of love out of which and within which all life and all forms continuously circulate. And as this great sea of life all things are within me and I am all things. And as the parent light within the soul from within me comes the possibility that all things that should be will be. Time itself dissolves, there is no limit in time and there is no restriction in space. Because I am constructed, I exist as a resource, I exist as a continuous reservoir for all things, for everything. If it takes ten million years, if it takes a moment, for me there is no comparative measurement. As the parent that is who I am in a human sense is filled with the parent that is the soul light of all things and in my human perception I feel into the vibrations that I know as aquamarine. As if all of life is born within the ocean, all of life is born out of the ocean. As if the planet itself was fluid before it could become solid. I experience this expression as a crown throat. What does this mean? My crown contains everything. It is a hologram of all that I am. And the centre that is my throat is the higher creative centre within me. And as the two become one my life becomes more and more fully creative, fully expressive, fully in flow. And as this begins to work upon me, as this begins to work within me what do I experience? It dissolves the sense of time and space, it dissolves the sense of age, it dissolves the sense of having or not having. And I feel as if I am always filled with every single possibility and there is nothing with which I am not within my being filled. And is this some individual personal thing or is it beyond the individual, beyond the personal, beyond the sectarian? And yet it is not a theory, it is a state of being within my soul, within my essence. And whether my body is well or healed, whether my body is living or not living, this does not, cannot alter at all. It is beyond these measurements and yet all these measurements are an expression of who I am. Perhaps we could say I am the industry of life, I have all possibilities.
So let the idea of the crown throat, the aquamarine, let it just do its own work now and to continue to do its work, nothing can interrupt it.

Now what happens if we then see the heart and the feet as one centre? It is not that the heart is in my chest and the feet are a little further down, it doesn’t matter. The heart, feet are principles. They are in relationship in one focus. How does this feel?
And as I allow myself to imagine my heart-feet centre so I am filled with the colour of cornflower blue. It is a colour that comes when everything is growing, when eve-rything is ripening, when everything is filling with abundance. It is a colour that as we enter into the experience and feeling of this cornflower blue it is as if it goes on and on forever and ever like space on a clear day. And it is right here and it goes on forever. It is as it were a great umbrella of my life. It is an endless possibility of ripening and growing. And if we look at history and all the ups and downs of every culture I do not belong to this. I belong to the ongoingness of this beautiful cornflower blue. For my heart is filled with expectation and hope and promise and my feet are filled with longing for life, for the journey of life. And within the being of my soul, beyond all personal limitation, I am the expression of the child. And the colour of cornflower blue is just enough to open the doorway of perception. And once the doorway is open we are in. We are within the endless promise of the excitement of the heart seeking the expression of its journey. And do I have to try and remember this or practice this or somehow work with this? Or can I just experience it and then just let it go? For we cannot invent the soul, it is more the opposite. Nor can we define a parent of a child. We are an expression of these definitions. And in contemplating ourself we free ourself from all the images and all the formal descriptions gradually but definitely. And yet within their own way within time and space each one is of tremendous significance. Which philosopher, which description, which book, which expression of ideas shall we follow? Maybe all of them in a way, maybe none of them for we respect as we look for our own expression the right of everyone. And then how can we work with this?

Now we say this is the parent space. This is the child space. So we say, What have I to give? We can ask this as a question, What have I to give? We can also experience it as a command, What do I have to give? Because the principle of the parents in this soul light sense is that we hold on to nothing, nothing actually belongs to us, it belongs through us. It is beyond the biological definition of a parent. We are all parents. So we could say almost intellectually, What do I have to give, or we could say, My essence, what do I have to give? I carry it therefore I must share it.

And then as a child we can ask the question, What dreams include me within them? I belong to which dreams, where do I find myself? In a way, the dreams to which I belong belong. This is a need. In a way we are saying that the parents have something which they have to give. They must give it. And every child has something which they must receive. But they don’t co-ordinate directly. So that in the parent there is what we call the responsiveness. We have got to be able to open to the new. The dream that embraces the child asks the parent to open to the new. What the parent has to give is food. In what way can the child take that food into its dreams? What we have to give is the food for dreams. And what we have to receive as parents is an impulse to be open to the new. As a child we are in the midst of a dream waiting to be awakened. Our very state of living asks and asks, is a state of asking. But our state of asking is for what has never ever been before. In order to ask we must be nourished by the food that the parent must give, the food for dreams which is encouragement, to be able to see the greatness in a child, to be able to salute the gifts that have never yet manifested.
In one of our Sunday papers they printed the head teachers’ report on well known students when they were at school. One of them was a man called Peter Ustinov, who is now about 80 years old. He is very original, very humorous, a very great rac-onteur and actor. His headmaster had written, he is intelligent but he has too many ideas that are too different. This must be stopped. I don’t know what happened to that headmaster but I know what happened to Peter Ustinov. He has been an enor-mous influence in the world. In one film he played Nero and he played so brilliantly. I think actors can play the negative roles best because they don’t have to pretend so much.
So I would like to ask you, what is there within you that you have to give. What is there that you must give away from within you. Can you put it into words? What do you feel if you die without having given it, that will be very serious. Now we could say, what is your gift to give. That is a nice way of putting it. We could say, what is your gift to give that you have to give. What is your gift to give. Now you can let your ego tell you if you like. It would probably be boring for the person who receives it. Because our gifts are always jewels, but they are not always polished. What can you give? Can you give patience? I have met very little gifts of patience in my life. Can you give time? I’m not that good at giving time but I love to pretend that I am. What do you give? Do you give encouragement? If you feel you give encouragement you have to look at it, because what is the flavour of your encouragement? Because I have seen people encourage until they feel that those they were encouraging are going to be better than they are. They encourage you to improve until you are not as good as them. People don’t like to give away power. Do you give away power? There is a whole psychological system about giving away your power. I think it’s a great idea to give away power. But not that you should be dominated by other peoples’ desires. Let them get on with their life. If you really want to drive your car so fast I really don’t want to get in your way but I also don’t want to get in your car. If you want to waste your money, wonderful. I don’t want you to waste mine.

What dream is within you? What dream are you within? Do you feel part of a dream that is waiting to be awakened somehow?. What dream are you within that is waiting to be awakened? What is it? How would it put itself into words? I immediately think of pictures, pictures of children starving in drought stricken countries. Then I see that Western companies send milk products to countries in Africa and the children don’t have the correct enzymes to digest cows’ milk. So that is selfish and ignorant. I feel that I am part of the dream that says no child should be starving. I don’t know what I am supposed to do with it but I am certainly part of that dream. And in all the countries where there is war lots of people are not liking lots of other people who look very much like they look. And if you are a child you are told by your parents, this is why we don’t like them. One day somebody’s children are going to make peace. Which generation of children will be the peacemakers? Do you belong to a dream which says, let us be the generation of children that don’t repeat stupidities?
Now in all of this there is the sense of working with polarity and duality and also be-ing in a point of unity. Light and dark will always be there. Creativity is the union of energies to create the third force but which has the spiral sense, which level can we draw it into beyond the instinctive and the ignorant. Because evolution doesn’t be-long to millennia, it belongs to consciousness. And the progress which could take ten thousand years could take ten years. None of this is relevant that history takes so long or so short.
So which dream do you belong to? Will you write it down just to see what it feels like. As you write down what you have to give, what dreams you belong to, so the impulses of aquamarine and cornflower blue are vibrating. The principle of crown and throat together, just the impulse that comes from that union. And the principle of the heart and feet working together. So we use our body but we are free of the formality of the body.
If in the future we are going to live for some hundreds of years it means that the body itself is not the body that we know. It is a series of principles which can be maintained in manifestation and then the form will take the planetary form. It is the manifesting of principles that are constant and the body as it were will be held by the radiant principle. We use our astral bodies in that way. We use our bodies be-yond the astral body even more in this way. Is this just a fantasy or are we closer to this than we might imagine? And if we are closer it gives nobody any advantage over anybody.
Now have you written down what you have to give and the dream that you hold within you? Or the dream that holds you within itself?

Have a look around the room. There is one person with whom you should exchange. Who knows who that person is? The soul. The soul is a gambler so don’t worry. The soul takes every chance in the universe that is no chance in fact. The soul only lives for the originality of that which has never ever been quite done before. So if you ask a soul, What are you going to do? They will always answer you. They’ll say, I’ll tell you exactly afterwards. But don’t ask me in advance. I only have the flavour of it. Who has this flavour? I would like you to just scan the room and see with whom you would like to exchange your concepts and I would like you to see in what they have to give how this would nourish you and in what they need, what is it within you that can respond. Is that too complicated? It is very complicated. That is what happens between parents and children, it’s very complicated. So what they give will nourish us, how is it going to nourish us? And what they need is asking something of us. What is it asking? Just five minutes of dialogue should fix it forever. It doesn’t have to be a trilogy, it just has to be a paragraph.
Let’s see what happens.
This has nothing to do with solving problems. It’s got everything to do with the gen-erative process, the generation generative process. How one generation can nourish another backwards and forwards. We couldn’t be a parent if we were not also a child. So the answers are less important in their formal expression than the experiencing of the forces. It’s like watering the desert, you don’t know what’s going to grow but you know it’s really going to grow. Or buying somebody else’s house in the winter and not knowing what’s in the garden for the spring. So we may know what we have said, but we may not yet know what we have set in motion. This is what is very exciting, I think. Mind you, you might even have got exactly what I was asking you to do. But that is part of the way in which it works. It’s that we hear what we hear and that’s what we work with. And by the time we have translated it we might have actually improved it. You know the invention of penicillin with Fleming. All his research didn’t produce anything but he left one little plate in the window by accident and something came in the window and there the penicillin grew. It was an accident. So the straight lines at a certain point have to have an accident. And these are what we call divine accidents. I would very much like to encourage you in this fifth initiation impulse to experience the sense of divine accidents. We are expected but we are not expecting what happens. Expect the unexpected. Are there any questions?
Now we want to move our bodies a little just to let it circulate in us and then we’ll take a break.

Now we want to continue to work with this concept but more in a meditative con-templative way, like a meditation with our eyes open.
The interdimensional teaching work in these times is more and more soul centred. This sense of soul centredness we also describe as opening to the fifth initiation. We begin to grow as cosmic beings in a certain way that is much like like the way the sun shines upon the earth and nature responds from within itself. The intellect can be encouraged in the same way as much as the imagination and the emotions. So that the idea of studying is in one way important in that we awaken through the ra-diant experience of ideas. So that the ideas when they touch us are like sunlight, moisture and earth working together. So that the nourishment of growth is there and growth happens. Maybe we have to in a traditional sense come a long way be-fore we can grow easily and naturally. But is this really true? Our history that is re-corded rarely goes back further than seven or eight thousand years. And we have no idea clearly what the level of consciousness is of our great oversoul. We are so deeply immersed in the relatively few moments of our own cultures. And yet the idea that we are going backwards and forwards not only to this planet but to many other systems of planets as well we regard as interesting but a little bit imaginative. We cannot say that life is an illusion because in its moment it is filled with all the pressures and all the opportunities that are very very real. But we can say that all things pass in an outer form. All the greatest books would not be written again by the same author in the same way. So if we were asked if we’d live our life again would we make the same choices, it’s not really a fair question because where we are at this moment is not where we were and it could not be again. It is as if we are within a process which has an immeasurable sense of time and an immediate sense of now. And we still have to be on time for the train and we have to pay for our fruit and vegetables. And the train and the vegetables will pass but it makes no difference if we’re not on time. It is an inner process that meets the outer circumstances. We may find that this process of realisation awakens to the ever presence of all the different aspects of our nature.

So now if we bring together our brow chakra and our arms what kind of centre does this create? We imagine that our brow chakra and arms are becoming one centre, the principles of joining together. And as these principles come together we experience the colour of pale jade. Perhaps we are asking of ourself something that we have never thought of doing before which means there is no right or wrong way of doing it. We free our arms and our brow chakra imaginatively into one centre, one focus. And we allow this to be filled with the vibration of our own impression of pale jade. I’m suggesting that within the soul focus this is the light of the adolescent. It doesn’t matter how old we are not yet, how young we never were. And what is the story of our adolescence that we will never repeat? None of this is important. The principle of the adolescent is also the ever-present promise. And this union of the arms and the brow is to do with working with change, with strong desires, with freedom. This is an impulse which has very little respect for anything that does not earn its own respect. Each of us must find the limits we could say, the limits that contain the measure of the day. But unless this adolescent as a soul force, as a soul light is present we will become fixed within our limits. So what are the longings within us for freedom, for change? What are the desires within us for going where we have never ever gone before? Before we ever make a decision we can enter into its experience within our consciousness. All these things are possible in a way that is almost like travelling into the unknown. We could ask ourselves, how will my experience in this situation be in five years, in ten years? But it must be more than intellectual to do this. It must be with the arm and brow pale jade impulse that frees us to be receptive to such a question. As it were the wave length of pale jade connects us easily, naturally. The adolescent energy always looks for worlds to conquer, the pioneer to discover. The adolescent energy in the soul sense is always in a state of interweaving with the adult soul light.

When that happens imaginatively we bring together the principle of the ears and the lungs. Does this mean that the ears have to breathe or the lungs have to listen? The ears and the lungs together are the principle of discipline, the principle of commitment. But it is not an intellectual description, it’s an experience of violet and yellow being able to pulsate into each other. How can you allow imaginatively the experience of violet and yellow to weave and interweave as if the one dissolves and the other emerges and the other dissolves and the one emerges. Not in a way that disorients but in a way that literally anchors, commits. Because in commitment there is always the sense of rhythm and always the sense of flow, never excess. What do we do with freedom? We make the world that is in our vision. And yet once the world is made in our vision, there must be a new vision to make it again and again. Do we always have to die in order to be reborn? That the world is remade because we are reborn and we look again? What happens if these principles of freedom and discipline are able to easily flow and exchange? Of the connection that the pale jade opens, of the rhythm that yellow and violet awaken. Because if the world can be made and unmade and made again is this not an alchemy of spirit? Does this then free us from the need physically to die and that the world has to die for us in order to see it as new? The lungs and the ears work together as one expression, one principle. The arms and the brow work together as one principle. And I am not imprisoned in a form, my form is the expression of my being. And if I can work within the process of creation and recreation, does my body then create and recreate itself too? How close are we to this? Because it is not so much with the fifth initiation that we do not need our bodies anymore, but that to be free of a body is to work with the freedom that is the possibility within such a form. We already know this within our higher self. Can it manifest here, can it awaken within the human being? Now if everybody on the planet is able to reform and regenerate and they do not have to reincarnate very much, what will happen? Asking the question is enough, because perhaps we are already beginning to re-lease ourselves from the fixation of historical imprint.

Now when we go that step further in our self contemplation, our soul light contem-plation, we talk of solar light and body light. We have friends who are doing re-search, conventional research that shows that every cell of the body is a light pro-ducer as well as its own function. Every cell is a small sun. The sun is like a great cell. And of course in our own natural evolution the solar body is the most evolved planet. We know that. Why shouldn’t the earth become as enlightened as the sun? If we go into the concept of space travel how much of it is just physical movement and how much of it is the space of consciousness?

So if we bring gold and emerald green together what happens? The one is pulsating into the other and we bring together the second chakra and solar plexus as one beautiful centre. We’re not worried whether it is above the heart or below the heart or beyond the heart. We can work with the solar light through the gold and the green impulse through this hara solar plexus connection. What does this awaken within us? Because the sun is a great generative planet, it is a great stimulant for life. It awakens within us the generative side, from the soul light sense, that when we speak, when we smile, when we touch it’s generative.

What happens when we bring together the brow and the base of the skull and they become one centre? And this centre becomes filled with the wavelength of rose pink. And we say this is the connection into the body light. What happens then? The body light is simultaneously present in every single cell, billions of cells. What type of impulse awakens in the presence of this soul light? We are often being encouraged just to live for living, to love for loving, be for being, do for doing. Can this be the most natural response because every cell is filled with its own exchange from within itself to the sun. What is all the information waiting to be awakened within the cell, within the chromosomes, within the DNA. What upon the needle point of such a threshold is the soul to do and to be? Now all of this measured within the state and stage of a single day or even a single hour or moment yet it is unceasing, it is unwavering, it is constant and continuous. How shall we live with this, if not to become more awakened by it and more awakened within it. So this is our contemplation, our open-eyed meditation. As if we could take the soul light and find its reflection through certain frequencies of colour and allow our ideas of the body and its structures to reform and present themselves in original ways. Now these ideas are an active process and they are at work within us even as we contemplate them.

Now how shall we translate all of this? Because everything has to be translated some time, doesn’t it? The ideas originate from somewhere and if they are spoken in one language then they have their equivalent in every language. And then they are translated again as we receive them into ourself. And then they are active again as we express. So they always say, it’s the worm that sings in the bird. What is it that will be the source of our song?

Now behind life there is always the sense of the great in-breath and out-breath.
For our work we can call it the light of motivation from within the soul. I’m having difficulty with seeing things myself these days. But I won’t admit it. I have spent many years meditating, contemplating about all of the things to do with truth but I won’t admit that I need glasses. As an optician I would believe that the whole world needed glasses. But I came from another fanatical group. I do have a pair but I only wear them when nobody is looking. I bought them from a shop where I know they didn’t know who I was. Why can’t I use the same skill in other areas?
Now we’re dealing with motivation, aren’t we? The motivation of the soul. There is this balance. Motivation is what we call an in-breath and an out-breath or a force which flows towards the centre and away from the centre. And where these two forces balance we float on gravity. We’ll never be burdened by gravity again. What are the forces that flow towards the centre? When we allow the idea of a solar system to begin to occur inside our imagination, where does it lead us, where do we find ourself if we’re observing the solar system in its very earliest stages? If the principle of the sun exists before it is visible, what happens? It’s a centralising principle that begins to gather to itself all that it needs. What does it gather? Because the solar system is made of stardust we are all stardust people. And there is in the way it is formed very gradually over millennia, over countless aeons of time, gradually the sense of the solar system breathing in. Now where within us shall we locate this principle? What if we say that this principle of everything coming towards the centre point in manifesting something is in the centre of the brain? Now instead of me suggesting which colour it is, which colour is it? Because in some countries in the world the light is much clearer, much brighter.

Let’s go right into the centre of our brain. What colour, what frequency of light do you see? It’s like going into the centre of the solar system when it is beginning to form and all the light of space is becoming condensed more and more into the micro cosmos. Which is the anchor colour for you?
Let’s ask ourself the question,Why am I here at this soul school? How would you define it right now? We’re right in the centre of our brain, we’re working with the impulse of the solar system that is drawing in all the information and all the es-sences from space. It’s being centralised through the identity of who I am. Why am I here in the soul school? What is my motivation?
Now before we enclose it too strongly in words, what colour or images are coming with the words? So the reason I am here, maybe is like the impulse of being on one of those great waves on a surf board. How do we put that into words? Maybe I’m here and the image that I have is of an orchard, a fruit orchard that is in full blossom. And the bees are busy and the birds are happy. And all of life is rich. Maybe I get the image of sitting on a rock overlooking the expanse of high desert. What does this mean?
Why am I here at this soul school, what is my motivation? What is there in the very centre of my brain working within me? And if I am going to talk from one part of myself to the rest of myself how will I express it? You might say, Well it seemed like a good idea at the time. But what is behind it? Is it the parent speaking within you, the child, the adolescent, the adult? Is it the solar self, the physical self? Is it a choir that is singing to you of them all? Is it an essence beyond what we have described? What is the motivation for being here at the soul school? Let’s just experience this a little bit.

While we’re experiencing it we can get onto something else.

So we’re looking now at what we call the out-breath, the movement away from the centre and it’s night-time and the sky is clear and there is a light in the sky that balances the darkness. The night is warm enough and the air is crisp as well. We look up at the sky. Maybe we lie on the grass which is not too cold, very comfortable and we can feel the earth but we look straight out into space. And there scattered across space are all the dots of starlight. As we dissolve into the earth we become just a pinpoint ourselves, like nothing. We look at all these pin-points and we know that they are so small and we are so big and yet we cannot measure them, they are so far and so enormous. There is a pulsation which seems to work within us as if everything is so big and so far and everything is so small and so nothing. We find ourselves in the very centre of our heart, in that place where the rhythm of the way the heart works is also the rhythm of the stars and space. Even as we experience ourselves expanding into the space of everything we feel the rhythm of our heart correspond from its very centre. All the mediocrity of our life just dissolves, it falls away. We are as old as the earth, we are as old as every stone, as every crystal, we are as old as the core, we are older perhaps. The rhythm of our heart is the rhythm of our very beginning of the visible universe. It is also my rhythm, it is my “I” rhythm, yet I have no rhythm of my own without being part of this network of souls. And none of this is passive.

What is my destiny? How could I describe my network destiny? I am eternal. My rhythm, my essence beats to the rhythm of the stars. But then what is my des-tiny? To what do we that is “I” and we together belong? Can you tell me what you see in me? For I cannot see myself clearly enough. Can I tell you perhaps what I believe I see in you? But only to exchange within the moment of its rhythmic expression. For the universe is always expanding. As a soul does this mean we are always being born more and more, more and more? What is my motivation for being at the soul school? I hold this question in the centre of my brain. What is this great collectivity of destiny to which I belong, am part? And I hold this question in the very centre of my heart. How can we define that which is beyond our words and the images of our perceptive experience? Are we the definition of all that we have not yet reached? So when the two balance together my motivation and my destiny, who am I, where am I, what am I? For I stand upon the planet of my acceptance at that point of equilibrium where there is no gravity. I am on the earth but only just enough. I am involved in everything that is so important in such a temporary way, it’s just enough. This is my entry point into evolution, into all the forces of creation.. And I realise perhaps that I do not seek to free myself from the eternal cycle of rebirth but to allow myself to enter more fully into birth and what this means.

Now just for five minutes meet again the person you exchanged with before and listen to yourself saying to them, This is my motivation for being at the soul school. But don’t just speak it, be within the centre of your brain. And then look into the centre of their heart and see what destiny shows itself as a state of belonging. For destiny takes on the form that always excites the moment that releases us from all the hesitations of yesterday. From the centre of our brain we tell our friend, This is my motivation for being at the soul school. We are in the centre of a solar system that is forming and this is how I am putting it into words. I look into your heart in a very humble way and then if you will allow me, let me tell you when I look into the space in the centre of your heart what I see.
So please find the partner that you worked with before.


...So that the sense of fellowship and the exchange of all that we have is con-tinuous. Has it not always been this way but we are now more aware? The reality of now is because of the continuity of communication. These occasions are that the sense of continuity becomes conscious and active and continuous. Each of us represents many people, many souls as well. We are all an ambassador of this concept of consciousness. Wherever we are we represent it. How we represent it is unique, is individual. Even as we talked in small groups so we belong sometimes for specific projects in specific groups. Yet there is a synthesis between all the projects although we may not always see the overview. We become more focussed, more present within the level of our own intention. And this is also an expression of the initiation into which we are becoming more familiar. Nobody goes forward without everybody moving together. Nobody waits for anybody, there is no time, no measure. There is the urgency of the living moment when we must meet the destiny where the cosmos meets the world as a planet. We call these moments moments of wisdom, moments when facets from many fragments of time unite to release like an explosion into the consciousness of all mankind.
While we are here physically are we less connected to our projects, our special groups or work? So let’s be here but imagine that we are not. In this sense our time does not come to an end nor does it have a limit. And the formality of a seminar loses its borders its limits. We are not dependant upon an extern structure for our connection. Out of all the sounds that we can hear within a day are we aware of those that are for us significant? Can we free ourselves from the sense of importance of everything which is not resident to our purpose? And while this may sound very focussed it is also very peaceful, very easy, very enjoyable. So the idea of spiritual economy becomes soul economy. We travel light, we travel with light, on light, we are light, we travel light. Gravity supports us, it does not bind us. Magnetism does not dominate us, it no longer controls our unconscious. The forces that bind, form to an earth, we become the masters within these forces. This is a subtle and at the same time a very real, a very significant shift in our inner space.
Now in these moments we become part of the higher or greater work of the cosmic teachers. These great teachers and those who are in their great example have to work through all the different streams of belief, all the different psychic pathways of seeking. And yet as we rise to this fifth expression we enter into the relationship of the God that is beyond religion. We could call it universal or religious, it is beyond the sectarian expression. As these archetypal factors of race, religion, family and role within the soul dissolve the traditional images we belong without being confined. We are no longer imprisoned within any system or within any single image. Which also means we are not in resistance to, or in opposition to, or in enslavement to. It means we become less visible within the conventional. We don’t wear a uniform that blends us into a particular view nor that makes us too outstanding. Now does this mean that we are at home everywhere? For as we might experience more and more as our whole physical structure frees us into an appreciation of its principles and we don’t think and don’t feel so much in straight lines, in measurement and in volumes for anatomy is not the dissection of a dead body, it is the vital expression of a living body which is the cosmos in miniature. As we enter into this cosmos in miniature we travel the universe. In one way we are so strongly centred within our own innate being that we can become anyone anywhere at any time and know what it is like to be there.
What is this library of the soul if it is not the direct perception of a living event that has got nothing to do with history as a straight line? If I look through your eyes I look through the eyes of your connection into the history of your line. But I look at you also through my own eyes. And as I look through your eyes I experience all the other eyes that see you also. But it is a synthesis of experience that I discover. Can we see how this frees us from judgement, from prejudice, from extremes and also from reluctance? How does it feel to be free of all these things that we do not need? How does it feel if we allow this to work within us, to be free from the fear of life? That the word death is not in the vocabulary. It is only a relative state. Our being is a continuous state. Now are we going back into the same world or is the whole world changed? If we have changed does that mean we see the world differently and that is all? When I communicate with you and I also appreciate the perspective through your eye is the world just the same? If I see again without effort through the eye of my enemy what happens to us both? What will I see when I see through their eye and what will they experience? For the living moment is all there is and yet without every other living moment there is nothing. So we enter into the moment the appreciation of significances.
Now what does prayer become when we enter into this more consciously, more as our normal? When we no longer need to give the shopping lists to God, negotiate for want we want and what we’ll do. The prayers of our childhood are comforting but the prayers of repetition are meaningless. Any yet those who still represent and pray in this way for them we must respect. It is their time, their place. Is our very life a living prayer? And then is prayer the living of the most enjoyable expression of the most encouraging and interesting that we can appreciate, discover?

I heard that they are putting up a fence around the pyramids, that we will only be able to look at them from a distance, that all the old buildings are gradually being destroyed as we walk around looking at them. Now I saw in some of the seals that you have drawn of your souls some very interesting instruments. Because in those times they could not carve the rocks, they could not carry the rocks without being able to employ some of the principles that the soul itself embodies. I saw some of the instruments that are there to transport great stones to shape the sand and solidify it into stone. There is nothing solid upon the planet, it is only a relative state. And if we can free ourselves from the superstition of the incarnation of Jesus we enter into an expression of the qualities of the soul, of the healing of the soul, lightening of the soul.
Are we really becoming free of all the fixations of the systems that have brought us this far?

I’m not insisting on any of this but it is important to allow the inner experience to both love and bless and experience the freedom of all these attachments. We are in it but we are not of it. We live more fully within the world that is in existence.

So where are we that we are not if we allow ourselves to imagine we are not here and when we are not here we can imagine ourselves here. And none of this is fixed in ritual or in structure or in form that cannot be dissolved or remembered within the focus of creative presence. And if we can just think of that without any sense of personal power in the slightest, no need to describe, to explain, to justify, nothing. No need to appear as if we don’t belong even if we don’t always feel as if we belong. Am I talking about something new? Is this how you already felt as a child before you were told when to get up and how to sit down and what to say and what not to say? When you still felt the world was your world you could do anything. Nothing to this concept of being is impossible. As a child we cannot make it happen immediately because it’s too strongly present in consciousness but not yet sufficient in skill. But where do we live and where do we just exist?

Now I often find in my work that there are all kinds of invisible people gathering in the room hoping the person I am working with is going to change the nature of soul energy between them all. So we come on behalf of many people. And creation if we are going to argue our case is taking a chance that the laws of creation will always work and we cannot do or make a single thought or a single act that will not be employed in the overall focus of the complete purpose. That good and evil belong to the same force, there is no difference in their union of purpose. At the same time we must be obedient to gravity until we can float on it. Every thought, every feeling, every action, intention is woven and interwoven, it is all flexible and transformable. In a way this is my experience of this morning, all of these feelings.

So how shall we be in touch with what we call the sounds of the soul? In a way I wish I was a choirmaster. But there is a nice story of the choirmaster and con-ductor who conducted St. Matthew’s passion. It had the whole full auditorium in tears. It was his hands and the sound happened and the music happened. Then he had to go home and his wife would say to him, well how was work, dear? Somebody heard him whistling to himself and he was whistling, You don’t get around no more, no more. A very simple childhood song. Somehow we have to find the equilibrium between the extraordinary and the ordinary. Because the extraordinary is what is awakening within us and the ordinary is where we live. And yet, wherever we walk we leave golden footprints. And yet, wherever we have been the outward form of disturbance is minimal but the inner stimulation is like springtime.
So we want to be able to get in touch with the voices of the soul and the sounds of the soul. But first we have to stretch a bit. We want to stretch and open our chest, our arms.
Elisabeth has just told me that our soul elastic has been stretched.

Now we are going to have some fun with this way in which life is always looking at itself through everything. And as we are the only one, the chosen one, the centre of the universe, the Christ child all by ourself and all of us are the most important person we could ever meet and it is so strongly within us that it must be true until it is true for everybody. As it becomes more and more true it is as if life only speaks to us and it has some reference for others of course but it always tells us the story of what life means. If we free ourselves from the egocentric aspect of such a state part of the experience of the awakening of the soul is to be within the centre. Part of the experience of being in the centre is to simultaneously be at any point of the periphery at any moment. So in a way we can imagine this building from the inside quite easily but we can also simultaneously imagine it form the outside quite easily. And just because some of it is under the ground to our rational mind makes no difference to our soul perception. Because we can only look from one point at one time in the conventional sense makes no difference, the soul can see simultaneously from every aspect. It is neither clever nor special, it’s normal. So if we allow that idea just to be free then what landscape are we drawn to? What landscape would you imagine if an artist said to you, Tell me about a landscape. Not a psychologist, an artist. A psychologist is a different mirror, a very important mirror, but an artist is another kind of mirror really. An artist is open to impressions and is not looking to see whether you tell the right or wrong anything.

Now, what landscape are we drawn to? Where are you? What are you looking at? There is no need to analyse why we have chosen this landscape. I am immediately away in the place where I have been born and there I can see the whole structure of that particular part of the world. It is a very beautiful part. I haven’t really thought about it very much for quite a long time.
Now what happens if we allow ourself to become the landscape? I am not looking at it, I am becoming it. I am the landscape.
Now, we are both looking at the landscape and we are the landscape. It’s the same moment. What are we describing when we talk of who I am?
I’m suggesting that in a moment we are going to tell each other about ourself, the landscape. But it is not through the eye of the artist. I’m not saying, There in the distance I can see.
I am this mountain and this is how I feel. And I am the trees that surround me. I am the bay of water that flows around as the sea comes as far as it can into the land. And I love to be who I am for upon me are living so many life forms. I ex-perience all the seasons and each one for me is a delight. I have seen many changes for I have been both above the land and below the water many times. Upon the top of my peaks there is often snow and yet in my base there is often great warmth and great abundance. What is my feeling about life? I believe that life is a continuous and permanent expression of everything that changes. How do I feel about life where I am in my particular locality? In a way the world comes to me, in a way because of this I also go to the world. If you asked me what are my dreams I could talk about the dreams of how many countless cultures and civilisations I’ve witnessed. I have been worshiped, I have been a God to many. I have been a place of rest and a place of warmth. What else would you like to know of me?
Now just for a few minutes we develop our story. Who are we talking about? If we allow the mountain to become us or ourselves to become a landscape what is the voice of the soul expressing? I am suggesting that the voice of the soul is expressing an experience if you like of our family and our people. The voice of the soul speaks on behalf of our family and our people through the landscape. We don’t need a book of pictures this afternoon, or of names and addresses of anybody. We don’t need a family tree to work on. Life is a mirror. I become the landscape according to my experience of myself. And as I speak the landscape becomes the voice of my family and my people.
Did everybody find a landscape? Just take the landscape you found, don’t think, Is it the best one or not. Of course if you insist you can play around with it, but I suggest you don’t because there is a significance in the association of the image. You know, I like it when a child goes like this and says, You can’t see me. But if we did not dream the world, would the world be there?

So just find somebody very near by and first of all say, Where is your landscape? Which is like giving our name and address in a way and then speak in the name of the landscape, I am. And as you describe yourself, your feelings, impressions, appreciate that it is also quite possible that your are also talking about your family and people. Maybe it is not what we would say about our relatives normally but maybe it’s what we will say about our family and people at a certain point of perspective and awareness. And why wait until after we are dead to find out whether we are alive? It always amuses me that they have a club on the fourth dimension where they are always discussing is there life before death? Many souls feel that it is just an illusion. Then they try to establish religions to insist on this. But it is possible to do it the other way around. And to as it were embrace the transforming of perceptions before we need to free ourselves from this domain.

The next is the weather. What weather are you in? How does it feel? Become the weather. We usually describe rather than become and now the particular moment of the day of whenever, wherever, we become everything in it. I am a bird sitting in the top of the branches looking far into the distance imagining how far I can fly. I am a little stream flowing through the meadow and as I pass by I see the grass and the flowers gently moving in the wind. And I notice upon the grass there is a picnic and children are laughing and playing. As I allow my experience of myself to expand so I bring joy to everyone today. I evaporate all the signs of the storm that was last week. There are some seeds that are just beginning to germinate and I warm them, I warm them, I warm them. There are some flowers that have died and I am the wind and I carry this away, I spread it away. I am the tree, the tree that has watched many seasons. Today I feel a hundred and fifty years young.
So what happens when we become the weather? Maybe we didn’t become the weather before. What gets into us, what do we get into? Who am I? I am a cloud scanning across the sky and the wind is blowing and I am falling apart. Far below I see a child looking at me and I think, it is your thoughts that are blowing me apart. I look into the eye of the child and the child sees its own future in me. It imagines itself in a spaceship so fast going from one part of the universe to another. Now we don’t have to go on too long, just allow the free association of becoming the weather.

I would like to suggest that here we are involved with a reflection of the expec-tations of the world. It is also a busy life. Now become the weather and what weather becomes you? And then be the weather. And speak, be the different as-pects of the weather speaking. Now is this just a child’s game? Or are we also giving a reflection of a busy life, upon all the expectations of life? Because life is always changing, life is always changing. You can pick up any newspaper and cover up the date, it doesn’t matter. You can watch any news video without knowing which day it comes from, which year and it will be just as interesting as usual. The weather changes, a busy life is busy, it’s just the weather.
A lot of our busyness, as I experienced it from this morning is the laziness. I loved the laziness. I felt a little uncomfortable because I am very busy with lots of those lazinesses myself. I am being very disciplined, very everything in order to avoid something else. Then I hold on to some thoughts that I shouldn’t hold on to. And then I heard Elisabeth’s voice, Elisabeth’s voice doesn’t go away. If only she didn’t speak but it’s too late. Now all of these experiences from this morning I felt, well it’s like the weather, it should pass, it should change, it should vary. it’s part of the flavour. And I look down, I’m very interested in fashion and everything. I was very interested in one of the streets of Bern recently. I was walking behind a nun, a very old nun. She was looking in a dress shop and I think it was purely my imagination but I immediately entered into her perspective and I discovered this beautiful young women wearing these clothes, walking and so clearly pleased with herself and then this little lady of a very great age dressed in very darkness with shoes that must have come from another lifetime and I wondered whether I imagined everything. Because she kind of appeared and disappeared. I always feel comfortable in the company of nuns. What I didn’t realise is how they live inside themselves. So then I went and looked into the window. Beautiful colours, beautiful clothes. I don’t know if the nun saw me and asked herself, what is that man doing looking in that particular window.
So what weather are you for a couple of minutes. Experience the world through your weather.

Now the seasons are connected with the “innere Führung”. So it just takes a moment. We link with the season and we are a messenger. As the season I am a messenger to my partner. What is my message to my partner? It doesn’t have to be a kind of a block season, it can be an experience of a season. It can be a summer day when there is rain, it can be the mist of winter when the sun suddenly breaks through and shines on everything. What is the season and what moment in that season and then we become the season. And then, just for a moment, we look into the eyes of our partner. Soul to soul and then we give our message and then we exchange.

Creative light of the soul. We have already worked so hard which really means we have done nothing at all while we have been doing everything. What happens has happened from within itself, not because we have done it.

So now that it comes to creative light we are first going to balance the brain. And of course I love to make this announcement to the world as it is today. Because everybody has their own agenda of what this is meant to be. When we’re working with the soul we’re turning everything not exactly upside down and inside out but we’re shifting our fixed perspectives. And yet we are not moving from our centre. There is a constancy within the midst of flexibility that has purpose. This both allows us to be how and what we are in the ordinary sense quite without complication. It also opens our life at whatever age, age stage it is into not so much the new but the expression of what we have quite expressed before. What we may not appreciate is that we have been involved with all kinds of projects over enormous periods of time. From one point in time to another point in time is no distance at all. Conventionally we don’t even realise who or what. Because in the consciousness of the soul these are threads that are never lost or broken. When we take up in this particular incarnation a thread of our creative expression it is just the next moment after the last moment where time has not passed. From our background we are encouraged to bring all aspects of our nature forward together that we are not too specialised in one area and too inexperienced in another. Because excellence is in consistency not in occasional brilliance and to become outstanding and to find that another aspect of our human nature is unable to manage is not the soul’s purpose. We bring all aspects forward together but not all in the very same instant. There is a rhythmic approach to it, there is a sense of an interweaving of time and space. It is always time for something. The soul in its appreciation, if this particular incarnation is receptive, employs it fully, comes right in. What we call the creative light of the soul is not always dealing with something that is new, it is something that is next. It may feel new in this time. It never repeats, we don’t come back and do all over again what we have already achieved. We take the next step. It is always in the light of experience. Between last time and now is no time but in that no-time we’ve had lots more experience. From the souls point of view it is enormous fun to create apparent senses of separation so that we don’t as it were fall back into habits, we fall forward into the unexpressed.

The progress in the world does not come from tropical countries where the tem-perature is very much the same through any season. The greatest thinkers and the greatest innovators have come from where there is a contrast in all the seasons. So the soul will very much employ the contrasts as a season. A very important part of it is to forget. But we only forget a fixed perspective. Forgetfulness frees us into what we might call universal or global. So the brain is a global universal presence. It likes to balance itself but it likes to be supported because each soul in a way is part of the other soul.

As we find the point we can feel the point of connection between the two sides of the brain. We’re asking the brain, Where shall I connect? It has nothing to do with healing, it encourages anything that the soul chooses to do. And this morning’s meditation was about soul healing. We begin to feel a rhythm, begin to feel a communication. It takes us around very easily, it takes us around. We find ourselves front to back along all those nerves that join together the two sides of the brain. Elisabeth talked about those yesterday. This is the moment it takes you around. It balances itself. It anchors easily the centre of the brain to the centre of the crown, to the centre of every chakra. And it takes you around. You don’t have to stop and start it moves you. And then you feel, aah.

As soon as we get to the “aah” then we are going to hold the crown to the base of the spine but we are not going to touch anything. Nobody touches anybody. So very, very easily we find the points of connection. It flows through the spine, it flows through the body. The body is a living brain, the body is a heart-brain brain. The cells of the heart are similar to the cells of the brain. The heart emerges in the womb before the brain does. It is the first brain. Now we feel that come through and then if we could do a cartwheel we would turn right over. Now as soon as we get to the point of completion it is just light, it is just a lightness. And the job is done.
Now we could take the chance of asking our beloved friend, How are you?, realising that the whole of our reputation rests on a single word. This is her moment of enormous power.
Let us experience this because we are doing it now in the light of all the things that we have already done, influenced very much I think by the impulses of this morning. It takes us around as we start from behind our friend and it will bring you around in a clockwise direction. That balances the brain and then when we link the crown and the base it brings it through the heart. This we call the whole brain. This is an expression of the soul, a soul instrument.
So please do it with your partner.

We have just prepared ourselves for a short journey in using this creative light. We want to serve the needs of today. It’s a very nice altruistic idea perhaps. I have got some friends who are very generous with everything they don’t really want or need themselves. It is always nice to receive what they have to give but it is not very much merit to themselves. They have to give something of themselves as well as whatever they don’t need anymore. I was very disturbed and excited in a way this morning by the ideas of our lazinesses. There is something that has a sort of flavour about it doesn’t it. Because the people in this room are some of the most hardworking lazy people I’ve ever met. It is difficult to prove how lazy we really are if we only get the chance. The areas in which we are lazy are areas of avoidance through indulgence in some way. So if we can identify just one, not as a confession, it’s nobody’s business really. Many people might think that our laziness is a virtue anyway and I wouldn’t like to persuade them differently, even though it might mean I would have to be reborn. Sometimes the pleasure of illusion is worth it.
Now that becomes our entry point, that is the point. These areas of laziness I’m suggesting cover a secret entry point through which we can make a contribution into our time. So we need to appreciate what this might be. Inside me is a very abstemious person, very disciplined in a rather narrow and rather kind of cold way. All these systems of denial and discipline, this part of me loves them to pieces and has held on to them. Although the rest of me doesn’t agree with it anymore it still exists quite strongly. Really we should all be very broad in a very narrow minded way. Your begging bowl and your one garment and whatever people give you to eat you say, thank you God. And wherever you can lay your head you say, Oh, what a wonderful bed. And all the time you are saying to yourself, it must be doing me spiritual good. And it does up to a point, only up to a point though. So for me that is a lazy area. I’ve gone past the point, I think. So I ask myself, if I free myself from this idea of laziness what do I reveal, what is the entry point? I realise that I don’t really love life as much as I tell everybody else to love life. There are a lot of things that I don’t really approve of or agree with or think it’s a very nice planet. So as I take away this laziness the joy of living comes up more. A spontaneous joy of living. Not for everybody else but also for myself. I try to remember when did I last go to a party and dance all night without having to become alcoholic to be anything.

There is a sense of always expecting to be in the middle of everybody else’s problems and feeling that this is life. I can imagine my inner teacher saying to me afterwards, How much did you enjoy your life? And I think, what kind of question is that? I have done this work and I did that and I’ve been doing that, look. And my teacher is yawning. He said, Partly I’m yawning because I’m bored and partly I’m yawning because I’m exhausted having tried to get you to do this. I’m relieved that your life is over now because it frees me. So how much did you enjoy your life? That I don’t know. Then I have to say, Well until a certain afternoon in Kisslegg, after a certain morning on the same day I found a secret entry point which I have been hiding away for about twelve lifetimes. I felt so holy in hiding it in this way. Then I see my teacher starting to smile and saying, Thank God, it’s taken twelve lifetimes and now maybe I can retire from the job. You can now release joy into life. Joy of life itself. And he disappears. Because upstairs they can just evaporate. And what he leaves behind is a single word written on an etheric piece of paper. It’s a word that has irritated me for years, it says “enjoy”.

Now what is your laziness? I confessed, you don’t have to confess. Just identify it. When you’ve got the right one it sort of buzzes a little bit or sometimes it flashes. Sometimes you walk past it without looking but it pulls you back. And then, just sort of dissolve it, just take it away. Where does it lead you now? It opens up an entry point. What I expect, as soon as you see it, you’ll smile. That’s a sign it’s working. Light brings lightness. In the newspaper of the soul there is no obituary column. I can see everybody reading the obituary column at the moment. It’s alright while you’re young you know, but you wait. You start reading all the names of your contemporaries until you check it every morning to see whether you should order breakfast or not. I want to see whether anybody is resisting their entry point. You know, it might be your favourite laziness. You may have certificates to prove that you are qualified in this laziness. You might be well paid for your laziness. Don’t give up your job but open the entry point. We always contribute into life something that lives, always. Now you can let this go around.

Now have you still got the picture of your soul seal? Having opened our entry point that has been so successfully concealed by our laziness we can contemplate our soul seal. The image that comes with this is of white water rafting. One of these rivers they call white water rivers is where there are a lot of currents, changes and all sorts of things and it just takes you. You’ve got all your equipment on but this could be your last experience. You have to pay quite a lot for such a possible last experience. First of all you have to say good-bye to everybody at home and then you have to catch an aeroplane to go to goodness knows where, maybe Arizona or something. Then you’ve got to get into a situation you may never have been in before. And you don’t know whether this is a life wish or a death wish actually. All you know is you want to free yourself into the adventure of discovering something quite new. Everything is fine until you actually get going. And then you think of the cost of it all and I must be crazy because I could be at home in front of my TV or buying myself a new toy somewhere. I could be doing so many things which are easy and it’s too late because now I might drown, I might be thrown onto the rocks. Who is this person who is guiding me anyway? They look a little bit too wild for me. But it’s too late. You’re in the middle of the river and it’s going. And even if you want to be sick you can’t remember. There is no time to indulge, you just have to hold on. But you mustn’t hold on too tight otherwise you’ll get thrown off. You can’t be rigid, you have to be very flexible, but you can’t predict because the water that is carrying you on is sometimes also pushing you back into the side. And suddenly you can’t see what’s over the edge. As you look anxiously at your guide, your guide is just laughing and looks as if he doesn’t even care. As soon as you look at them they say, Look ahead and hold on, don’t be stiff. Let go but hold on. I’ve done this hundreds of times. But that doesn’t comfort us in the slightest.

Now this is the experience we’re in the middle of. And suddenly we don’t ever want it to end. It feels so dangerous and so safe in the midst of its danger that life without it will never be the same again. I want to live like this everywhere, every day, every moment. Not always in the same outward form perhaps but with this feeling of the immediacy of everything. Because I could cross a busy road and some idiot could knock me down. And I’ll be bound to that idiot for another lifetime or two because they’ve done that. Wild river rafting is much safer than that.

Now this is our image when we contemplate our soul seal. What adventure into tomorrow does it awaken in you? Sometimes we just get a seed and that seed has a promise within it. It’s proliferate. Sometimes it’s the next step of a project which we’ve been working with forever. It will always involve others in some way because we never dream alone. Take it inside yourself, let it do its own work. And then gently come back.
Let’s hold these two aspects somewhere inside us and let them just move us.


....Elisabeth manifested on a higher level like Krishna and she danced before our eyes and made a piece of music that told us the plan and the blueprint for all of this. Then she said, We will forget all of this and then we will remember it together spontaneously. And it will be a challenge because we never know if it manifests materially in time and space. We never know until we choose voluntarily to work with it together. This free will is remembering from the level of knowing without any sense of human logic or human rationale. Do you remember that? As soon as she had woven her patterns of sound and colour and it had revealed the opportunities we all said, Alright. And we agreed to incarnate but not before. That is not that I want to suggest that Elisabeth is responsible for everything because in a way as I experienced with all our groups there was a dance that each of us danced that all of us could appreciate. And as Elisabeth was saying to me, the work has been so much within the community that there has been hardly any attention to people individually. So that the hierarchy of work is still the equality of souls. The possibility of entering into the manifesting of a project, to have people at this level who are receptive and responsive, allows each of us to express the quality or the gift or the principle that is our soul radiance. Then I was thinking about the time before we even thought of such an idea as a soul school because I don’t think we thought it. We were drawn into the thought and I believe that simultaneously we were all drawn into the same thought. But Elisabeth has a way of doing it now. I would have waltzed with it for a while. But with Elisabeth the same morning it was already done. And then as soon as it comes into a literal form we all begin to remember and at first it’s just another workshop, then it isn’t. It’s written in the form of a workshop but it’s something else. And then I was recalling the first time we met in this formal service. There were only a few of us there but the room was so full with all the invisible people. You know in medieval times they used to decide how many an-gels could stand together on the point of a needle. And I thought it manifested that first time. As if we were so one pointed and there was so much potential manifesting.
Then of course I personally enjoy a game of football. Where I come from actually it’s called rugby. It’s a very stupid game. They run after a ball and then they run after each other. Everybody is trying to stop anybody that has the ball. And at the end of it you drink as much beer as you can. Then the next morning you tell everybody what a wonderful time you can’t remember you had. So as we first began to work together I thought I was in a rugby match actually. Because we’re all coming in from our own areas, we’re all battling in the world in some way. Everybody is very beautiful and everything but we’re all tough guys. If we managed to see which incarnation we brought forward to the first group they were all tough guys. Then the incarnations of the second group were a little bit more spiritual. And now it’s just from the temples of beauty and light, it’s lovely. Everybody has left their weapons outside the door. Maybe it’s a very subjective perception. And then this morning for me I experienced the anchoring of the significance of it all. Because I have sat at the feet of a few remarkable beings who didn’t really notice me at their feet although I was hoping they would. They all brought the principles of this morning forward but they never ever manifested significantly in their life and in their groups. So these were pioneering movements that had to shift the inertia of how long. As it were they have been the forerunners of the forerunners.

Now this morning I felt that this great work of the 20th century has now reached in a very subtle way its entry point into the level of manifestation. It’s a remarkable feeling. It goes all the way up to the archangelic beings who hold great areas in their command. Of course it’s a great compliment in the sense of an ac-knowledgement of the evolution of mankind or the evolution of souls that it can begin to manifest. It does not give us special privileges or make us important in any sense because that attracts attention and it lowers the level. But this is an entry point and this is the point of significance. It has begun invisibly in a little quiet place in the south of somewhere that just happens to be called “Sonnenstrahl”. And this morning it just happened that the sun was rising through the window as the meditation began. And a lot of things just sort of happened. In the groups of six you just happened to be sitting with five other people somehow. It just happens to be the final morning of a certain project.

Once the entry point is, as Elisabeth suggested, there is no turning back and there is never a thought of turning back. Those kind of questions don’t even exist anymore, there is never a sense of hesitation or doubt. There is only the mo-mentum of the moment of timing. Now these moments we have to be almost alone, as we were alone not knowing more than where we are and a little bit about what we are. A moment later we say that the whole of the universe is there in support.
So perhaps in a very personal way I wanted to acknowledge this perspective in comparison with your own perspective. And also to say that when one or two people have come to give me some kind of thanks or appreciation I have felt no less than their appreciation for them. Because this is only possible because we are here not because any one person is here.

Now out of this comes what we call the principle of soul light power. We talk of this as the soul dreaming. Dreams of the soul. This is not quite the same as night dreaming or day dreaming. Soul dreaming is a form of contemplation, it’s a one pointed presence within the nature of being of the soul that is in constant at-tunement to the changing nature of universal momentum. So that this sense of soul dreaming is a continuous realignment, a continuous movement of alignment. We call this holding our presence and yet it is being held within the present. Soul dreaming works within the rhythmic relationship of how the subtle manifests within the material which then recycles.

The first level of soul dreaming is into ideals. Ideals are like the passport that allows the soul to travel to wherever it chooses to observe and to study and to experience. The universe is connected through the vibratory pathway of the wavelength of our merit. So that the concept of ideals draws us in some beautiful spiritual attraction to experience these great ideals, these great movements of divine thought.

All the principles that are at the essence of each of the colours or each of the chakras are within the cosmic states of divine preparation in continuos radiation. It is far beyond human thought and it is much deeper than human desire. For the principles of creation are a very simple construct in the sense of not being com-plicated at their source, as if there is only one more that then manifests and dif-ferentiates. So that we are drawn into the journey, into the travelling of the realms of ideals and this colours us, it shapes us into that sense of both devotion and action. It is through this principle of the ideals that the heart is the first great organ in the awakening of a new form.

Now we may experience it in the way that we cannot force our attention into these realms but we are invited in. And we can only hold our presence through non-action, through non-direct will. It is based upon the principle that the force and the power that we do not use does the work. And this is the principle of community and of manifestation through community. There is no polarity, there is no duality. And yet within the union of energies everything is possible.
Here we can ask what is our ideal. Is it courage, generosity, patience? Is it seeking after wisdom, understanding? Is it to find balance, is it to find justice? Is it seeking a way in which everyone can love everyone else? For in whatever form we hold an ideal it is in a vibatory sense reaching us and drawing us toward beyond its own definition. In the sense of the soul dreaming it never stops dreaming. It is constantly visiting, searching, travelling within these great universal ideals. It is like a great nourishment, a resource that is always full and overflowing.
This morning Elisabeth suggested that we are here now to learn from many dif-ferent teachers, to take what we need, not to become over absorbed in the single system. These great ideals draw us through the obvious and through the literal and through the structure. In a way we become involved with significances and this is what belongs to us. In a way we get nothing from the teacher but we remember what is already within ourselves. The soul is free and belongs to no one. Beyond this all belong together.
Now as it were we live within the ideals of the dreaming soul we then enter into the workshop of the soul, the workshop of ideas.
The workshop of ideas is where we can play with all kinds of perspectives of pos-sibilities according to our own divine experience. A meditation that we have practised over many lifetimes allows us to be one pointed, focussed and concen-trated, that’s its job. It is through this that energy follows thought, that form in a form of sense manifests. Ideas in the dreaming state can do anything. If we allow ourselves to recall how our mind can construct and deconstruct in an instant we can completely reverse the situation. We can translate it into something uni-maginably different. Our ordinary dreaming gives us a clue into the workshop of ideas because as we focus on the way in which an ideal can become practical so our mind can construct and reconstruct. But it is not just one single human mind. It is the relationship of the soul within a divine mind. Now the divine mind never gives direct instructions but it directs everyone. This sense of direction becomes the inner recognition or the inner discovery, the originality. This is where we discover the group which we spontaneously feel is our own. Without hesitation we have our place and we have our role but that is even then only the beginning because we each have our own as it were anchor point until the energy of the group takes its own momentum. In a moment we realise that everyone can do the work of everyone. According to the day and according to what is needed each one will do whatever it is that is required. Can we feel then that this is the release from material attachment? My work, my job, my this, my that. In the workshop as with our dreamings our ideas are unceasing because every project we seek to work with will need a hundred projects that lead towards it, that support it, that flow from it. Because from ideas and from the workshop of the dreaming soul we enter into projects. Now a beam of sunlight is a project. It’s a projection from the light source. Even in the physics of the material every projection will return to its source. Now projections are always putting everything to the test. Projections enter from the world of unity into the world of duality and polarity. In this there is never ever failure. But there are sometimes moments that are not successful enough. Yet projects work with these pinpoints of light as they manifest and become continuous, ongoing, forever. So that just a fragment of enlightenment is never ever lost. All the forms of experiment and experience are recycled and gone. If we could experience the energy radiance of all of us during these seminars we would see that there have been sparkles, sparkles coming out. These sparkles are those moments of foreverness that manifest within the process of transition. These are the gifts that we share amongst each other even if we are not so conscious of them personally. To not be aware of them personally does not mean that we are not aware of them impersonally. Beyond the importance of individuality comes the impersonal self. Now projections are interesting because at one moment it is my turn to lead, at another moment it is your turn to lead. There is always the variation of role and of focus. If in one sense I am listening and following one person when I go into another place I become of a different position. We are all teachers and students, we are all leaders and followers, we are all supporters and innovators. In appreciating this we cannot look in the mirror and become involved in a fixed image. In the ideas of yesterday that’s pure laziness. But to call it pure laziness is too complimentary. I feel and once again it’s just sharing a personal reflection that it will be very difficult to wear the same clothes two days running now. Maybe we don’t do that now, for hygienic reasons maybe. In another sense as it were to make oursleves up as if we already know who we are. It’s interesting because the personality is a multiple persona, isn’t it. We have a cupboard of masks. Now what happens when we throw them away, we don’t throw them away we give them to the Salvation Army. The Salvation Army is a spiritual organisation, absolutely directed from Spirit to support everybody who is fixed in a mask. I’m saying that because I’ve been rescued by them more than once and my particular mask was very grateful at that time.

As we go into the sense of testing projects so we free ourselves from the material attachment of who I am, who I am not yet or who I would like to be. Now this allows us to even more enjoy who we happen to be. This also, if we think of the work of the last days, frees us from the familial fixation. I am longing to get back to see how everybody doesn’t look the same to me. I am not quite detached enough from wondering whether I will look the same to them. But certainly I imagine they will say to me, What’s wrong with you? It’s difficult not to tell the truth anymore even for me. Because I come from the discipline of the weather forecasters. They sit on their satellite and tell everybody something that is going to happen but very often doesn’t. I’d love to sit in a satellite and see everything moving and going and then make a wonderful declaration and then have a glass of Schnaps which is almost like a fatalistic gesture.
Also as Elisabeth suggested, the changes that take place are subtle, there’re gradual and they take the rhythms and cycles of a number of seasons so there is no confrontation, there is investment that creates a nourishment for everyone else. But at the same time a gradual dissolving of everything that is not essential, that is not really real.

And then we say the soul dream comes into the area of conditions. This is within our body, within our incarnation and this is where as ordinary human beings we are a part of the principle of commitment. I’ve heard this talked about as if before we come we sign a contract and you cannot withdraw from this contract. It’s a soul and spiritual contract. I’ve always heard this and I’ve always felt a little anxious and a little like a teenager in relation to it. Nobody is going to tell me what to do. And yet these levels of soul commitment are very much for better or for worse. It’s got nothing to do with whether you like it or don’t like it. The fact that it takes such a long period of our life to realise that we need to spend the rest of our life asking questions doesn’t matter. We are awake always before we are awake here. But when we begin to awaken here this is the real commitment and we commit with exactly what we have and who we are without trying to change anything. Gradually the sense of the ideals, the ideas, the projects and the actual physical hands all begin as it were to breathe in and to breathe out. Maybe it’s already been happening but it’s real now.

I met a young couple in the Middle East working with the theme of changing your reality. They said the outer form of everything in our area is so horrible but we know it is not real, it is only transient. The whole project of supporting the way in which communities can change their reality, their perspective or their perception. The fact that it happens to be in the Middle East just happens to be. The changing of the reality is a pure soul expression and it brings together without having to take aeons of time, these ideals, and ideas and projects and commitments, it brings them all into the now. I have a feeling that the older we get the younger we will be becoming and also by definition, the more interested we will be in where we are and what is happening. And when it’s time for us to lift off permanently we’ll say, Just a minute. They’ll say, No, no, there is a lot of work to do up in the sky. We’ll say, But there is always a lot of work to do. Here it’s really interesting. Now how long has it taken us to become really interested in being here? A lot of us have got so many interesting projects in other places we have been that we have been very reluctant to commit the fullness of the soul. You know, I’ll give a donation. I’ll hold a little party, I’ll belong to a little group. I’ve got some books. Very nice. And then I’ll go on holiday where I’ve been before. Wonderful. A little progression with a little regression.
And then we enter into conditions which we don’t take personally and to which we are not attached materially or egocentrically. All the horrible people in our lives have actually helped us to free ourselves. And their horrible mask is taken off and they are very relieved so they can actually show us how much love there is between us. This whole world of duality is experienced from a point of synthesis and integration. Isn’t that exciting? I found that this morning when Elisabeth spoke it created so much the significance, it bought it into conditions as it were, as a commitment. And once it happens in this sense it does never unhappen.

Now what happens to us? Because our attention starts to be more into those moments between rather than into the moments of confrontation. We listen through the sound, we see through the visible. The experience belongs to the continuous while everything around us is changing. So that was almost a personal commentary to compare a little bit with each other and very much to appreciate the enormous privilege that we find ourselves here, that I find myself here. And that I can speak in a different dialect. Thanks a lot.

Now let’s work with a meditation
It’s what we call closing our eyes to see. Now this is a meditation from the crown to the higher chakras. And the theme is soul dreams into human realities.
As we experience our crown do we not experience the synthesis of the fullness of our human being? That all the colours of the visible spectrum become pure, clear, transparent. According to our nature and according to the need so we radiate whatever colour or colours is appropriate. I become my crown chakra, I become the unification of my human nature and my human being. Coming together are the many aspects of my personality into one pointed centre. And into the centre also I feel the many different expressions that my soul has created in how many different lifetimes. And I enter in as I become the experiencing of my crown into the collectivity of my own soul expression. I find myself amongst the atoms and the molecules, the great process of the creation of new worlds, new planets, new stars. There is within me that pure correspondence from the greater to the smallest. And now within me there is that entrance, that absorption into the next level, the next chakra above the crown where the light spectrum expands beyond what I’ve ever seen or known in the everyday. Perhaps we would call these colours pastel but in their subtlety they are more radiant than anything material. For each of these colours in itself is a great force, a great nourishment, a great intelligence also. These are the colours that touch the essence, they touch the ideal, they touch the pure intention. As we enter into the relationship with this higher chakra all the fullness of our achievements do not matter at all. For we are just beginners, as much as we have achieved we enter in as children again. We cannot come without sufficient preparation and yet all our strength, all our knowledge, all our experience we surrender fully and completely. We let go all the attachments, all the sense of merit, importance, status. Yet we are who we are. We are the radiant expression without attachment of all that we are. In this chakra another level of memory awakens. Here we find a higher level of networking, a collectivity of souls of a completely different perspective. And the universe that is so vast to the human eye is our home, it is where we live, it is our backyard. Everything is connected, everything is related, everything is a part of all things. We observe as it were a world of sparkling, scintillating, pulsating life. As we experience this state we find ourselves amongst our own. We are always drawn to the kindred with whom we belong. Here we might experience the presence of a great christed being, a great buddhic being. Their presence is not individual, it becomes collective, it manifests simultaneously in everyone. here we begin to experience the projects that are being planned for worlds that are not yet even manifested. Then we reach the centre of this centre of energy.
We go even to the chakra that is above this centre. It takes us beyond form and beyond incarnation, even beyond the manifestation of universes. It begins to work with ideals, principles and these great and beautiful expressions that are the constant laws of creation. We are entering in into the essence of ourself and we find ourself a part of everything and always. The human heart becomes the universal heart, a divine heart, an ever present heart. It’s beyond colour, it’s be-yond the differentiation of light. It is the level of pure intention, the highest ideal, the world, if we like to call it a world, a concept. For it is here that energies themselves become the womb of creation. We find ourselves as some might say at the feet of the creator. And yet what is a foot that is not also a heart and a head? We find we are as much as we have ascended and as much as we have appreciated at a new beginning again. And we are within a constant state, the ever present, the living moment that is always and always is.
This is a state of experiencing that has no shape, no form, no colour, no sound. Could we call it a divine spark and then release the concept of the spark? So this is our source. When we talk of our it is universal and collective and all inclusive. Very gently we experience in a simultaneous way that we are in the world of ideals where it is so exciting to be part of the great hierarchy of creation. Wherever we belong we only see where we are. We never know quite the greater plan. And yet even where we are is a great plan in itself as we experience it. Then we are part of the workshop of ideas where we live, where we really experiment through the genius of each other. It is unceasing this workshop. There is so much to discover, to invent. And then there are all the projects, never ending ideas, unceasing possibilities. As they can be encouraged, nourished, fed into awakening humanities .As if we are filling the air with a certain aroma, the earth with a certain fertility. Then it is discovered as if it is original and as if it is individual. Then there is the commitment itself, the world of materialisation. And yet within this world we see through now that nothing is solid. Nothing is limited by time and there is no death. There is polarity because there is unity. There is duality because there is education. And we are who we are and where we need to be. And we are now within the presence of the relationship of each other as souls as never ever before. Within our lives we are evolved, we are detached. There has never been a time upon the earth as this time. The dreams of the soul and life upon the earth have come together now. It is a unique time.
So let’s just gently come back.

Of course we have to go through the formality of moving our bodies back to wherever we have come from.
But it’s not a formality to thank each other, it’s a sense of spontaneous sharing of love and joy.

Thank you.

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